I hate talking about myself

Yes, I know how cliche this sounds.  I'm running a blog, so obviously I like to talk about myself, but that's not what I mean.  I hate talking about my strengths and such.  Over the past few months I have had to write similar documents about my strengths as a leader to add to graduate school applications.  Prompts like, "Highlight some skills and experiences that make you the best possible candidate" absolutely freak me out.  I don't want to downgrade myself and say anything negative, but I don't want to be that person that just says, "I'M AMAZING AND IF YOU DON'T HIRE ME THEN YOU ARE AN IDIOT".  What I've learned over the past few weeks is that I need to say the say "I'M AMAZING" without having to say it, which is difficult.

I mean, let's face it.  I am amazing, but so are we all.  I'm not trying to start an existential movement here, I just don't want to sound like a self-obsessed woman on these applications.  So I'll talk about how I am an LRA and in charge of a staff of 8, I was Vice President of Operations in my sorority and that entailed being in charge of a board of 15, and I'm currently the Vice President of Allies, the LGBT group at school.  I have to talk about what impact I have made within all of these roles and how that has better prepared me for graduate school.  Then it hits me.

I'm not prepared for graduate school.  I don't think anybody really is.  Yes, it's a continuation of your education, however everything is different.  I will be the adult in charge, not just the leader of a student organization.  We are in this college bubble.  Sure, we have jobs and take classes that prepare us for after graduation.  But does that mean that we are actually prepared for after graduation?  There are some people I see throughout campus that scare me when I think that soon they will be departing into the real world.  I'm sure there are people who think that about me.  Heck, I think that about me all the time.

What I'm trying to say is that we are all awesome and have these awesome things to put on our awesome applications and awesome resumes, however once we get that diploma, it's going to be like momma bird is kicking us out of the nest and we have to learn to fly.

I just don't want to be that bird that's stranded on the ground.